When I get hurts

I don't know whether I should post this entry or shouldn't. However, I believe it's time. Frankly, I was very disappointed with you. YES! I repeat DISAPPOINTED! For God sake, who the hell on earth wont feeling upset when the most person that they literally trust on and hope to be with weren't there, and the saddest part is AGAINST ME FOR NO REASON! I'm asking you right now, where were you when I was in the middle of woes?

I kept asking myself, what did I've done to you? All this while, I treated you so nice, but you thrown me shits. Or you might needed me just for your own significant like what you did at the others? There's so many questions popped-out! Most of negativity questions I must say! You should know that! Yes I want you to know how much it hurts me. There's so much pains inside me, with what had been given from all of you onto me. I gave the best in me, but it might not enough for you you and you. I thought you were different than the others, but I was definitely wrong!

There's many obstacles during our relationship and hating us to be close. I watched your steps, I believe you can survived without me. You are still young, believe me if you pick wrong comrades to walk with, you might falling down. Your inner youth want something odd and rebel. If you don't know how to remote, you'll bite your own hands. Always think twice and wise. I still care about you, nevertheless.

I stepped back and washed my hands. I don't want to involve into troubles anymore. It's for our own good, though.. I'm tired of care too much about others feeling until neglected mine. So I guess, you can picture what I'm trying to convey here. Till then. 

Picture the moments

Last weekend I was packed by activities and extremely knackered I must say! Sigh.
So here we start, Hmm.. I went to Raub last Friday, after back from work about 4.30pm, drove hundred miles away to helped mama meeting her doctor, cos she need to take a treatment in order to healing her knee-pain since she was suffered like 2 months and couldn't bear anymore. Luckily mama came early cos if she late, her knee bone might getting worse and potential to do an operation is high cos now she was in stage 3. Thankful, now she can walk like usual. Oh before I missed, Mama is from Raub which is the place that she was brought up and where her sisters and relatives lived. Therefore she knew about the clinic that provided this treatment, plus its cheaper than the other clinics. It only costed RM240 for each knee to inject the grease.

Hehe. This was sudden-planned! Swear! I didn't planned to go IKEA. It suddenly popped-out after mama finished her treatment, I asked whether she capable to walk and go IKEA, she said OKAY! Well.. who doesn't want to go IKEA right? hehe. So I bought SIDE TABLE, NET-BED,  TISSUE POT and what else? errrr.. Some random stuff I guess. Couldn't recalled. 

Was bumped into Mira Dora.

MEATBALL THE BEST!!! 

I couldn't find nice sentences to end this story. But, felt chirpy cos my weekend was filled with lot of activities. So next, will post an entry about my daughter's room. It still in progress, though. Later!

*BLOWING KISSES!

Cranberries 2012

My outfit inspired by Nabila Huda. :)

I attached few pictures of my Cranberries concert last 4 April. I guess, I leave you guys here. I'm rushed to drive back to the office. Let the pictures speaking. Sorry for the short note. Toodles!

Stop being so awesome

You may leave

Some people true colors are really starting to show. I always treat people nice however will always return bad. Now I won't put any hopes nor expectation on anyone. I wonder and ponder, it might something lack in me that I didn't realized or I PUT A HIGHEST HOPE on them much.

I hate when I'm gone, they started to appreciates.

I will rise and rejoice even you treat me like a rotter and watched me in snide. God is the best listener. No need to shout or cry, because he hears even the very silent prayer of a sincere heart, You will regret in losing me. I can live without all of you.

He left me this yesterday

Hanging

I'm still awake at this hour, meanwhile tomorrow is my first working day at new place and new environment but in same course, still. *take a deep breath. I can't sleep, so many things bothered. My head keeps thinking and thinking about what is going to happen on my marriage seemed I found there's no reason for me to stay and continue this relationship. I don't how to point out in words, but HE JUST UNWELL-PREPARED to be a husband and father also don't know how to commit on his commitment and know the real meanings of responsible. It's better he leave than exist and doing nothing. He don't know how to appreciates on someone who has willing sacrificed everything for him.

I won't talk bad about him here, but big regret and sad cos I really hope this marriage will lasting. But I'm clueless and don't find any solutions to wrap it safe. Day by day he kept hurting me with his actions and no effort to fix it back. Will see what would happen next.

Oh, my previous post takde kaitan pun dengan masalah ni.

Passionate about arts

These pictures were taken a few back months, I can't recalled when was the exact month. LOL! Okay, despite about the month bla bla bla.. what I was trying to conveying here is to show you girls some of my breading works, easy to bread actually but then I can do lot of styles though. I've learnt from youtube all the way, no need to spend money to go to hairstyles class. Youtube is the place where you can find everything, hujung jari je yalls. :D

Sadly I can't apply it on my hair.

Quotes of the day

There's no remedy

I really need someone to talk with, but there's no one left. I hope every tears can help and healing my scars. Only Allah know how I felt and through now. I couldn't hide the sadness. I take this as a test for me as his umat cos always neglected him. Personal things cannot be shared with no one, it might come destroyed us back.

But I'm glad, she still here with me and always be my alter-ego, my forever happy pills. I don't wanna grow older. I'm scared to face my future, I'm scared she will leave me behind. I can't think straight now.

Agogo pictures

I found these pictures at MYPARENTSWEREAWESOME on TUMBLR. I think it quite interesting to shared it here. Many awesome pictures that we never thought they were young and beautiful, they passed through what we through now and they were in love. Many sweet and wonderful pictures you guys will find there.

So here some of my parent pictures that I wanna share with you guys. My late abah really love photography, these pictures were taken by him. So it run in me I guess? :P

Kitchen inspired

I'd been eyeing this kitchen years ago before I got married, its inspired me much and according to my taste. I attached here few pictures, cannot upload all but then you can visit here to see more pictures. You will die seeing all her stuffs. All nice and fairy-tale. One day I will get my own dream kitchen. InsyaAllah.