I need a proper hug

In the middle of having a thunder fight with my husband plus facing a period pain. Great combo i tell you! I need someone that can give full attention and listen to my problems. I wish mama was here beside me, the best portion! I don't know how to distract this fuck up feelings. Bila tah sesi memujuk akan berlaku, mixed feelings! I mad at him but I also missing him much! He just came back from johor. Sesi manja-manja tak berlaku pun lagi, dah tambah masalah lagi. I NEED A PROPER HUG FROM HIM! I miss sleeping on his chest, I miss his silly jokes, I miss everything about him! -.-'

I just want him now.

Inner voice and hope you can hear

I know I was way too far and beyond limits sometimes, but as you can see here I never let u down nor disappoint. I always push myself to be the ONE that you wont regret of also the ONE you will proud of. But the thing is, you always ruined the precious part. Always! As you wish, I will start the things that you reminded and hope you satisfied and keep everything low. I wash my hands off you, wont put any hopes on you cos seems like you are changed! Changed to be more desolate and warm. We only have one child not two not three, but you changed a lot. I don't know how far I can face and walking through all this.

I miss us, I miss the things we used to be. I only a wife that need your an attention and love instead of libido. You lose temptation on me, I guess?

Sincerely,

Your wife